Seriously f life . Gosh . I'm dont really aware of reality right now .

The reality of me failing my N level , oh god . Tell me why :'(

I know i did my very best & not th best of all , cause i remembered th day before maths paper clique's and i went to malls and hang out spending time and not studying .

I still cant get over it , th feeling still hidden deep inside my heart . I miss school .

I miss th teachers , i miss th long bus ride home . Gosh it went pass so quickly that

i wont be able to catch it . I want those time back . Just now i was otp w one of my bestfriend .

We both were talking about th times we had spent togeder w B-Sq . &

th time we spent in class . I still remember before chem class started we would always buy

our so called ' Chem meal ' . I've make my f&n teacher down , i remembered that

a week before my N's i was sitting down w her togeder w bestfriend to cramp those notes & vitamins inside our brain . I'd know i promise you to get an A1 for tht sub but i've failed .

I'm sorry , i think i did very badly for th paper cause it was

damn hell diff . And you know it yourself . Trust me i'm typing down as well as crying at th same time . Ugh its so emotional to think back about th past . If ever i've got th chance

to scrape off my butt to sec 5 i would . And i would seriously study hard for o's .

But its too little too late to make it change , right now i've to wait for my school in april .

I've applied in shatec and am so afraid to enter th school . Cause my mindset for a min , it

goes to th worried part and th horrid part . And another min , i think of th enjoyment part .
Am afraid that i wont be able to have friends like i have in sec school afraid that i did not do well in school cause of my sometimes clumsy-ness . Afraid that i would give up halfway and nowhere to go . Afraid that i wont succed in near future . This is whuat i worried all this while , :'(

Am so afraid of th future like seriously . How i wish i am smart . :'(

I love this fucker guy up here , forever i swear . (:
Just a short post btw cause i'm ultra-ly lazy to type down whuat i did th
past few days . (:
By th way credits to imah choi for capturing this picture . I love you honeybee! (:

Today , suck big time .

Th whole day at home until around 7 plus maisarah called me up to follow her

go bbq . I was invited but lazy to go , in th end i decided to go .

Th food was 4/10 . I favour th stingray only . Yummy yummy (Y)

After went home i was kana screening of like fuck la hor .

Alright till here then , gtg . Very sleepy :(

Ok this picture , seriously very old .
I think this was when im in sec 3 . Very nerd right ? I know ,

super nerd till i cant recogn my own face . HAHAHA , but this pic gave me a lot of good memories. And eventhough we might not be close friends as before i still love you

as my bestfriend before . Anyway i'm done talking bout tht , now i wanna talk bout whuat happened today . I've recieved thousands of calls ( abit exergerrating uh ) from humans .

Idk why -.- . Then after tht i had to wait till 9 to eat my dinner ,

Mummy cook so long :(

Tommorow im going out w bestfriend , to town. HAAAAAPPPPPPYYYYYY MEEEEEEE :D

I'MMA GONNA SHOP TILL I DROP . Got my pay cheque just now .

Gonna cash it out tommorow and shop till i drop ;)

Orchard>Bugis>Penin>Marina .

Weeeeee cant wait ! (:

Currently my mood is like this , so warning first dont trigger my mood .

Or not you bare th consequences . Tyvm .

I'm sleepy & shagged . Feel like jumping onto my comfy bed and boost to lala land .

Idk why i'm feeling waaaaaay to sleepy , maybe because not enuff rest right after my holidays .

I'm currently bored to death at th same time , cause some human beings right

told me tht he wont go for soccer but he did in th end . No further comments for tht .

I'll leave it to him then , :)

Today th whole day i'm at home , cooked thailand noodles tht was taught

by my friend mom . Hahaha she sucha a sweety but i guess now she dont recogn me anymore :(

Either wed or thur im out . HAHA finally i got my paaaaay . Super happy ^^

Like finally i can shop again , gonna buy more clothes & shorts .

Currently im craving for fish manhattan , saw their menu on th web . Walao tempting lioke shitszcsc . Th price also damn nice but its ok , its worth a try right ? Lol . Till here then

i'm not in a good mood so try to be nice to me .

I'd just got bck from jb and i'm tired to th bits :(

i miss my bby alot like seriously till i cry . His now away for jamming and im all left alone .

Very sad much huh ? I know . But its ok . Anyway today is our anniversary.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY ! (:

Yes its been a challenging one month for us , because firstly we fought alot over small stuff a lot .

But i lioke it alot . Because after our fight we will tend to forgive each other

and move on like usual . At th same time , not only we promise each other not to fought again

but we also experience a deeper kind of feelings between each other .

And tht's what i adore very th much.

I'd wanna say sorry to my baby tht because of my holiday i'm unable to meet you

and its our first month somemore . I'm terribly sorry honey . I hope you understand itt .

Ok till here then, by th way during my holidays i rly spent a lot of time w fam .

I played bowling w em , swim w em , eat dinner w em , joke arnd w em , share stories w em

AND MOST IMPT CAMWHORE W EM . ((: