Seriously f life . Gosh . I'm dont really aware of reality right now .

The reality of me failing my N level , oh god . Tell me why :'(

I know i did my very best & not th best of all , cause i remembered th day before maths paper clique's and i went to malls and hang out spending time and not studying .

I still cant get over it , th feeling still hidden deep inside my heart . I miss school .

I miss th teachers , i miss th long bus ride home . Gosh it went pass so quickly that

i wont be able to catch it . I want those time back . Just now i was otp w one of my bestfriend .

We both were talking about th times we had spent togeder w B-Sq . &

th time we spent in class . I still remember before chem class started we would always buy

our so called ' Chem meal ' . I've make my f&n teacher down , i remembered that

a week before my N's i was sitting down w her togeder w bestfriend to cramp those notes & vitamins inside our brain . I'd know i promise you to get an A1 for tht sub but i've failed .

I'm sorry , i think i did very badly for th paper cause it was

damn hell diff . And you know it yourself . Trust me i'm typing down as well as crying at th same time . Ugh its so emotional to think back about th past . If ever i've got th chance

to scrape off my butt to sec 5 i would . And i would seriously study hard for o's .

But its too little too late to make it change , right now i've to wait for my school in april .

I've applied in shatec and am so afraid to enter th school . Cause my mindset for a min , it

goes to th worried part and th horrid part . And another min , i think of th enjoyment part .
Am afraid that i wont be able to have friends like i have in sec school afraid that i did not do well in school cause of my sometimes clumsy-ness . Afraid that i would give up halfway and nowhere to go . Afraid that i wont succed in near future . This is whuat i worried all this while , :'(

Am so afraid of th future like seriously . How i wish i am smart . :'(

I love this fucker guy up here , forever i swear . (:
Just a short post btw cause i'm ultra-ly lazy to type down whuat i did th
past few days . (:
By th way credits to imah choi for capturing this picture . I love you honeybee! (: